Is My WordPress Get Hacked?

I don't know what to say. In these days I really confuse with my primary blog (darinholic.com). It's weird, because I can't see any old posts on my dashboard! There're only comments and other tools existed, and without any single posts!

First, I fetched up. And then, looked at that zero number of post make my brain screaming. What the hell?!

Ok, all I have to do is calm down. So I try to contact my hosting's costumer service and reported all. They responded so well, in fact they remoted my laptop from distant (that amazed me so much) to check if there's any trouble with my hotspot's local DNS. But, after hours of waiting, the result was nothing. They also can't figured out what the hell happened to my connection.

I know it isn't their faults, but if this is not gonna make a good benefit for me anymore, I'm pretty sure I will find another hosting service.

Any advices from you, guys?

Quite Morning Coffee

Meet you again, folks.

This sunday morning was like usual. The sun comes and immediately cook whole city as I prepare for my morning coffee. It's bloody hot indeed, but for coffee? I think that's unquestionable. This is Kupang guys, and you won't ask why people here were loving so much sip their coffee cup although the day was hot. In Bahasa, it calls: tiada hari tanpa kopi.

Little story about my works, all my friends at road database project went home at this early morning. So it wasn't surprise that I enjoy my morning ritual alone. No noises. Peace. But still, hot.

So, how about you? Is it hot there?

Long Time No See!

Hello fellas, how are you?

Seems this blog has quitely not on its best performance, yes I agree, and I thought you all would think as well as me. Actually it's little embarrasing to tell you a whole story, cause I afraid that could irritate your blogging session *lol*.

Ok, here I am. Like a dwarf woke up from his secret tree, I suddenly got surprised while typing words by words in this blog. Strange. As you already know, English is not my primary language, nor secondary, and I must thinking so hard to make it tertiary. But who cares? Unless if this blog boosted some bucks to my pocket, it doesn't matter. That's how I mention again in this blog's description: just write it, no matter what..

I want to be a writer, that's true. I always addicted with story writing, novels, books, little bit poetry, and yeah of course, analyze movie story like useless criticism. So I blog, like what I'm doing in Indonesian one, just to fulfill my curiosity, how long and how consistent I would be pretend as a writer. Sometimes I feel grateful, thank God there's blog around here :D

I assume you have a lot of questions for me, and I'll make it simple.

What Do You Do?
As far as I know, I'm an engineer at river specialty, so I often across the country just to solve water, specially in preventing specific region from flood disaster, sediment overwhelmed, and so on. Currently I did some projects at Benanain River, and it should end in the middle of September. Also made some design alteration in Embung Project, you should read my story about Embung if you ask.

Why You Tell Us?
Nothing, just make some answers. Remember what I've wrote in the opening: I assume you bla bla bla :D

Are You Kidding Us?
Hey, take it easy. I just try to make my blogging ritual smoothly, you know, like turn on your old motorcycle and you should warm it up a little bit? I do the same analogy, perhaps it work in a right way, but once again, I don't want you to care. Just read it, okey? Hey, I just an amateur, guys! *lol*

So, What Next? Don't Bore Us!
Ok, ok. I serious now. Next, I'll make this blog continuously flow, to make it as a habit, or ya..like a virtual machine which generates nerd ideas into words. I won't promise, but it would be good for the sake! Isn't it, folks?

Enough for this session, see ya in the next update!

Do Something, Not Just Shout!

Demonstration is the most common activities in Indonesia. If you have time to watch Indonesian TV channel (I suggest to not doing this, it waste your time and make you dumber than an idiot), you’ll see a lot of people go down to the streets and yelling something, one of them should bring a speaker. He probably walks backward and supposes to be their leader. But I think he’s like a moderator of disorder party, or such an unclassified mayorette of a disoriented drum band.

Do they speak in the name of people? The messages are clear, but the mind behind it is questionable. The fact is, people in this country turn out worse economically, socially or even mentally. It doesn't educate us at all and for me, it's like a folly.

Corruption, distrust, accumulated with lack of empowerment, and possibly spiced with provocateur made this suicidal collective action brought us to circumstances that are not getting better. They might forget about hard work. I was thinking do they have a real job instead expose themselves to the sun? Do something man, not just march in those indeterminate groups!

This country needs hard workers, and wouldn't change even you rally your entire resources. Something that should be changed is us, ourselves. How do we think, how do we act, and how do we set up ourselves to go through this blurred period.

I hope things will be better...for Indonesia.

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In Kupang (again)...

I've stayed here for just two nights but it feel like a thousand nights. The smell doesn't change at all. The sun's shining at approximately 37 degrees and still..lack of water. My friend told me that I would gonna be suffered in the office's inn 'cause of that matter. I thought he's joking or - as usually - tries to throw exessive humours (that hear it's not funny at all), but it does frighten me. 2 months without water for bathing and anything for what we're doing in the toilet? Must be a worst nightmare that I would dream about!

Kupang should be an unlucky city. Placed at Timor island, Nusa Tenggara Timur Province of Indonesia which has a semi-dry climate. Rain only drops just in December and January, but I believe that's just a fake theory, 'cause the fact is there's no real rain here. It only a litte amount of water falls down to earth on temporary way. It's crazy for Sundanese like me, or anyone who live in Java island which rain drops almost everyday during wet season.

But life must go on. Hope everything're gonna be okay.

See you.

Bad Day Waffles

I woke up at 2 am, did my unfinished work so I can email it just right at 6 am. Today I'm going to Kupang, the capital of Nusa Tenggara Timur province, Indonesia, while it have been left for about 2 months. First, it's surprising. Second, it may be just not good for my daily plan. Ok, I just have to change this and that, or whatever it's gonna be, but sure..I can't change the world (sorry Clapton..)

When I landed at Yahoo, wow..what a headline here. 'Bad Day' named one-hit wonder of the decade? Seriously? Actually I do love that song. Specially when you got your heart broke, something proceed were not like you planned, or might just stared up in the window and watched the cloud out there. Yea, every songs have their own moment, haven't they?

Back to 'Bad Day', who is the singer? Oya, Daniel Powter. He's Canadian and this single is just his first album?! Damn. How many artist we heard that can reach that achievement? In his first impression he can charming every single heart in this planet. He conquers US and Ireland on his first year. Furthermore, in the US, it was a massive smash hit, and became a most successful single of 2006 as Ranked by Billboard Magazine.

Let's see a part of its lyric...

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

The first and second are my favorite. Where's the moment I needed most? Tricky question. I'm a loner, and I guess the moment I needed most is when I'm completely alone. Being alone is not too bad, just need a little reconciliation between your brain and your heart. If it's not working, don't push too hard, get a cigarette and burn it down. Well, that's my style. I don't know how's yours.

I kick up the leaves and the magic is lost. I believe, the word magic here is refers to luck. How many times you lose your luck, when it right there in your bare hand and ready to be used? For me, it's a thousand times. Sometimes luck is easy to get, and easy go too, it depend on my own perspective. Of course, if I presume today is my lucky day, everything's going to be okay. All I must do is keep that idea in mind, do the best thing, and don't forget to pray (we do it everyday, don't we?)

Oks, my mail has sent, it means I must finish this post right now. Thanks for coming by, and good luck with your work, people!

Sucker for Irrelevancy

Now, something I need to point out. How bad to be a multitasking person? No, I'm not talking about the ability to juggle Facebooking a friend; scanning an email; texting on your cell phone and tweeting about your latest technology tip — all at the same time. What I try to tell you is: is that okay if someone take - for example - two responsibilities at a same time, although he couldn't determines which one is to be a priority?

I hate rush and I consider it as a nuisance. May be other loved to be seen as a busy man, but I don't. D'you know what I know about busy man? The people who love to brag about how they're wired differently from mere mortals and can accomplish several things at once. More sarcastic? They're suckers for irrelevancy.

Just not my thing..

Irrelevancy or not, we must realize if we found it hard to believe each other while we just sitting behind the desk. Everybody talk about action and action. That's why I hate watch television right now. It's too many jargons, allurements, euforias, and bullshits everywhere. I see more hates than loves there. Damn.

Back to the point, multitasking. Someone said that if you want to be a good multitasker, you need to be able to very quickly decide between what's important and what are you going to pay attention to. That's my bigget problem , man!

I believe that people can't multi task very well, and when people say they can, actually they deluding themselves. Because what? the brain is very good at deluding itself.

I'm not deluding myself, neither sucker for irrelevancy. So what's the matter?

Cloudy Sunday

This cloudy Sunday don't make me weak. In the morning, me with family were going to one of the greatest spot in this city, Manahan Park. Right 7.00 a.m, we took there, feeding our baby with mush and breakfast with sun soup (is it right to spell: sup matahari?). It's very crowded, we must walk inch by inch, touch each other, well..we have to be in patient exercise in the early morning. That's good :)

What d'you guys do in this Sunday?

Just Tired

I was tired for everything. For those unfinished problems, or difficult peoples, ohm..I was close to make my mind in a bad prejudice. It's not good. I need something fresh, not just attacked by ideas I conquered long ago. I hope not.

On my to do list, there are several things that I must erase it immediately. Might they just wasting my time, or sucking off my energy, I must don't give a care. Too much intens right now that force me into this puzzlement. May be I'm not a goal-oriented anymore, but everything should be done before New Year! Damn, it least than one month ahead.

By the way, to attribute my educational results in internal factors that I can control is likely my major motive. And believe I can be effective agents in reaching desired goals was another one. Also interested in mastering a topic, rather than just rote-learning to achieve good grades, make a peculiar step in my day by day life.

But is it important right now? While everything seem unclear and my mind like got bombed with sorrows? Hey, you still have this free oxygen, don't you? Yea, who said it's for sale for God sake. Sorry, I'm gonna be swept off feet here...

Ok, next question is, how do I get motivated? It may be different for us all, but we have all got one, haven't we?

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Start Up a New Toy

I've working on physical model test for one month and I found many things are new here. On the first order, our attention is about to overcome the rate of sedimentation into the Wonogiri reservoir. One of the actions is building a sabo dam or check dam on the certain river which might have reasonable contributes to supply sediments into the reservoir.

According to inception research, upperstream of Keduang river has a suitable place for sabo dam. And hydraulic test are required for clarifying the appropriateness of its hydraulic design with main objectives are: to study hydraulic performance, to obtain flow parameters, to study the problem encountered and to confirm the effectiveness of the design of the sabo dam.

One of the items of observation is carried out local scouring on the downstream riverbed of the sabo dam and also on the new bridge foundation. Here's my task, to simulate the sediment transport beyond sabo dam, therefore the model can be applied on the real world.

ANSWERS is the software to simulate the behavior of watersheds having agriculture as
their primary land use, during and immediately following a rainfall event. A distributed parameter watershed model incorporates the influences of the spatially variable, controlling parameters, e.g. topography, soils, land use, etc., in a manner internal to its computational algorithms. Those factors influence sediment transport on the watershed. I think that's a phylosophy of ANSWERS.

Can't wait to share what happen next.

Reasons

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

As Oasis blow off Don't Look Back in Anger on my earphone, I try to recollect my lost memories that influence what I've got today. Several photos, pieces of writings, nostalgic songs and glances of fine remembrances, freshly wrap around my head. Honestly, I hate to be a man who ever was, and the other way, sometimes I miss my youth time very much.

Teenage angst has paid off well
Now I'm bored and old

Cobain probably could read my mind. He sang about discomfort of being old, but still have a little youth enthusiasm which brought him to express it on brilliant way. Same with my life. However I do these days, those are a cumulative of what I did yesterday. A friend told me that I'm too mousy, I accept that, and inch by inch it'll become a psychological walfare for my life. The good news is, I'm not a fragile people. So I attempt to strenghten my other potential talent which could conceal it and blotting out those. Writing is also can be an aid. I guess that's my reason to write in this blog again. To heal the past...

Do you agree if someone say that 'writing is healing'?

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When Quite is Better Than Crowded

I really enjoyed while bustling with friends and make ambience lively. Sometimes being together is so much fun. Many things would come out, such are new gossips, news (good and mostly bad..), ideas or just cracking jokes and jested each other. In fact, I think it's good for our health, in cases where somebody get hurt and lonely, it will increasing the production of dangerous hormones that have a direct impact to mental condition. If ever someone told us about the badness of being crowded, we'll think the same thought: that's not a leg to stand on.

But it's true due to my own argument, or anybody else who made a similar opinion, but sometime it's not usually, relative to up and down motion of our life. Stresses and pressure have not been so intense nowadays. Life's such not enough to be plotted on 24 hours. There's no distinct boundaries among countries. And so many miracles on these years than hundred years on ancient time. This wrought out massive confusion, and if we were lucky, might we living at desolate spot in the noisiness of the world.

It's undeniable if we as a human needs comfortable matters. That's why we strongly must have a religion. Umm, I don't wanna write about it, I just want to share this isue: why mostly religion require quite and solitude atmosphere on its activity? It should have a fervent reason, shouldn't it? For me, it's simple. It's about the way to communicate to The Almighty Creator, to hear my own underconsciousness-voice, to pray my hopes, and to simmered down my will.

What's the point? I think we need more quiteness for our spiritual live, so we can learn for 'what should do and what shouldn't do' in our life.

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Grateful for Luck

When I was in my lovely childhood, everything seem colorful. Everyday was a great time for exploring some challenges or just disseminate imaginations on every single moment. I've forget some, but still intend to one or two moment that I should call it 'a gigantic moment'. A funny thing is, I did not rightfully proud at all when my parents showed my elementary report book, damn..I was always got rank 1! Do I ever imagine for what I would gonna do to that excitement? I mean if I already have the awareness? Oh my,..swear I'll scream around neighborhood and tell people so they know that I was great,..as great as Gaban, or Sharivan (my childhood role model).

Now, I realize that my life was kinda like roller-coaster. Truly, I never expect to what I've got trough today, and I feel grateful. Somebody said that I was lucky, but I think: life is such a group of luck, isn't it? How good we read the sign effected to how long we could hold out throughout this life's irregularity. At least that's my point. D'you have one?

Take My Own Side

Remember when I had been obsessed with something. Actually I didn't know what the point is, otherwise I took a thousand ways to satisfied my will. Sometimes I no longer feel secure in who I am and start comparing myself with others, or no longer have time to maintain a good relationship with my families, friends and colleagues. All in all, I put my life off balance.

Now, the circumstance changes dramatically and gives me no option. I see a clearer path right now and don't want to waste it no more. In fact, I'm young, spirited and a bit genius (as my under-consciousness mind say). I have no problem with my health, instead still smoking a few, and hey is health more important than wealth? At least that is my argue to overcome my pessimist-side.

Some suggests to picture my mind as a blank canvas or a dark sky. I take that and hope my world would more colorful. Like Remy (Ed Harris) on Gone Baby Gone said: 'You must take a side!' . Yes, I take my own side right now.

Hiatus on Facebook

If you've read my previous post about facebook, you'll notice that I would become like those who addicted to the application. Not far of it, immediately but not take a long thoughts, you are true.

In the beginning, I threw up a lot of statuses and commented all friend's status. It's really fun to have a feedback and sink on this virtual communication. Swear to God, procrastination was a very best buddy at that moment. Don't ask for my work productivity, it's far far away from perfect. Moreover, never ever take a look at my desk, cause it's clean! No books, no job list or even small notes about 'to do' list. Yes, that's all my confessions...


Nah, in the middle of the adventure, it was a little bit boring. Spent hours just for being fetch up in front of monitor, type this and that, laugh and mad... This is not my real life, I want to believe (just like Mulder said to Scully on X-Files) that I was a real human being. Not through this way.

That's why I do need some breaks. Hiatus...
But blogging? Hey, I feel a new passion here. Reborn!

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Express Weekend (2)

This is continuance post from the first one.

My trouble had not disappear yet, as the mission was going not too good. I faced with fact that at the moment was a holiday season. People go abroad for their families or take a refreshing vacation somewhere. They extremely need mass transportation as train, bus or anything move and took them to destination place. And you should know that train in Indonesia was a perfect mass transportation ever!

Two days after my arrival, I rush to station for tickets while I still praying for not ran out of it. But fate has been given. I can't believe for I was just heard from the girl behind the counter: 'Tiket habis pak, sampai 4 hari ke depan'. What?!

My head spinning around. How to make it real? I guess some options:
1. We took economic class train, and it means my daughter would really tortured there.
2. We go by bus. Sounds good, but it won't guarantee to have a nice and comfortable bus.
3. Wait till the ticket available, it means I miss my presentation at the office for 4 days.
4. Go by....what?!

And I don't know, that idea was just popped out. Travel! Yea, are there any Travel Agency in Cirebon? I'm not sure but I'll try to find one. By asking some people, most of them are merchantmen, I finally found the agency and you guess what? Fortunately there are still some quotas for us. That's it. The problem was solved, and here I am now...walking down in Solo again. I will miss Cirebon!

Express Weekend (1)

Let me make this thing more clearly. I'll tell a short story 'bout what I did in the last weekend. As you know (do you?) I've been alone for a week because my wife and my daughter went vacation to Cirebon. So, on Friday night I went by train in order to picked up them back to Solo. No, not I, I mean WE . Fortunately, my parent in law, cousin in law, uncle and aunt in law and grandma in law (is that true? I'd confuse to mention their status in English), with two noisy little kids..you imagine that. I was look like a disoriented skinny guy and stupefied in a crowded railway station.

Situation got worse when we ran out of ticket for Senja Bengawan. Thus, we didn't have any options except must went by Gaya Baru (in fact, that train was extremely full of passengers from Surabaya), and honestly I did not like it at all. But for goodness sake, I'll do everything to go altough must get through of this. What else? I'd miss my family much!

So, that painfully journey was happened to me. I can't sit, can't move or even stretch my back, but Alhamdulillah I still can breath...

Seven hours later, at last I and my cousin in law arrived at Cirebon raiway station. With painful bones and annoyed heart we dragged our feet walked down through that quite and cold dorm. And finally, yea finally.. I can laid down my body at a taxi cab.

Every single pain was dissapear when I saw my one year daughter slept. Yes, she's so beautiful...

to be continued

No Breakfast...

This is the fourth day for being a bachelor again. Last night I watched Valkyrie from video rental and I decided to not borrow more than one movie, unless I'll broke my own health and flunk alone like poor loser. Hey, I've slept late for 3 nights! Influenza is coming easier to my condition right now, I realize that as I believe luck come easier for an optimistic man (is that so?). Plus what I did in the afternoon was totally neglect all sentiment, I played futsal with workmates for one hour. Call me freak and I'll nod perfectly :)


And as I thought before, I woke up lately this morning. No breakfast on a table, dirty dishes and smell of coffee still breeze..

Oh, this gonna be a long long day ahead.

Alone for a Week?

I've never imagine to be a single parent. How could I take care a kid while I spin like blended avocado on my own life? No no, that was an extreme one. What I'm talking about is being alone when your family were not at home for some purposes. It mean you'll eat by your self, clean the house by yourself, wash clothes by yourself and of course you'll sleep alone... in Bahasa this situation is like famous song: makan makan sendiri, nyuci baju sendiri, tidur pun sendiri.. :)

My wife and kid went to Cirebon and as a plan they'll stay there for a week. This was not easy for a first time, but let see what can I do in this lonely week!

My Fave Software

I've been working at Experimental Station for River for almost 3 years, and I think there is no reason to not use one of most powerful hydraulic software like HEC RAS. My first experience was when I tried to simulate water profile level at Pulubala river system. As a first case, I consider to not to be afraid to the result, or focusing too much on perfection. While the program running and not meet any errors, I'll shout hooray! Till now I have performed several projects on various type of river to simulate.



And at recent times I often ask to myself 'how to make my model run perfectly?'. Thus, I studied the user guide, hydraulic references and also practicing the examples. Within months I make any types of model and run it in different input. And then I think, well..this is a great tools! When I want to know how high the water profile is in a channel, I just run it. Excel is not necessary anymore :)

I use HEC version 3.1.3 right now. I know there is beta version (4.0), but when I like one tool, I prefer to enjoy it first and stick with it.

D'you have your own fave software?

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