Reasons

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

As Oasis blow off Don't Look Back in Anger on my earphone, I try to recollect my lost memories that influence what I've got today. Several photos, pieces of writings, nostalgic songs and glances of fine remembrances, freshly wrap around my head. Honestly, I hate to be a man who ever was, and the other way, sometimes I miss my youth time very much.

Teenage angst has paid off well
Now I'm bored and old

Cobain probably could read my mind. He sang about discomfort of being old, but still have a little youth enthusiasm which brought him to express it on brilliant way. Same with my life. However I do these days, those are a cumulative of what I did yesterday. A friend told me that I'm too mousy, I accept that, and inch by inch it'll become a psychological walfare for my life. The good news is, I'm not a fragile people. So I attempt to strenghten my other potential talent which could conceal it and blotting out those. Writing is also can be an aid. I guess that's my reason to write in this blog again. To heal the past...

Do you agree if someone say that 'writing is healing'?

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Salute for Everyone on the Launch of CRBOM! (2)

This is a second chapter from the first one. In early post I have mentioned that we had a trip which called Field Trip on Friday, 31 May 2009 (Mr. Nielsen-ADB's official-hates the banner on the bus that write 'Study Tour' instead 'Study Visit', he said it's like a group of high school students!). Well, there are 5 places to be visited and I had written in the early post that we have visited an underground river in Wonosari, Special District of Yogyakarta.

Next, after lunch break, we landed on Sand soil Irrigation System in Samas Beach, Bantul. Actually it's a weird farm. You see, farmer plant onion, eggplant, cucumber and other kinds of plants in the sand soil that we think it's impossible to do. I have no right to explain further, but I can describe it in short expression: it's simple. We just dam a river about 30 km away and distribute its water through underground pipes and we build a hundred of well to suck it, and yes, the soil become wet and we were able to plant some kinds of vegetables.

Hmm..it's lunch break

Everyone amazed

How it can be?

Not satisfied yet, but the time is running out. It's 5 pm and we must on the bus again otherwise we could be late to have dinner and watch Sendratari Ramayana in Prambanan.

Actually it was a great dinner. We enjoyed the food with fantastic view of Prambanan Temple. Too bad that I can't provide it because there is not enough light to support the pic..:(

After that, right about 7.30 pm the show would be held. We walked to indoor dancing arena beside. I see that everyone were prepare for unexpected thing here..


And some pics that I think the best of all..



Ok, the Field Trip was completely done and everybody seem happy. It's time to go back home because tomorrow's program await us..fiuh.

And finally this is a last pic of Workshop..


See you guys!

Salute for Everyone on the Launch of CRBOM! (1)

I start with say hello to all fellow readers. This is a very busy week as I thought, but in the end it's just an equal revenge if I have sufficient time to write just a few words to describe.

It was a hard week actually. Start with Monday till Friday that I with all comrades had fought with chaotic circumstances, little confuse..but it paid off after all. CRBOM is the starting point to what it's all about. It's an agency which established by Ministry of Public Works, Indonesia, as a member of the Asia-Pacific Water Forum (APWF) network of regional water knowledge hubs. As a plan, it held in Solo City during five days but the core of the agenda was held on Tuesday, April 28th, which a formal ceremony of CRBOM consisted.


Unfortunately, the Minister did not show up so Mr. Iwan Nursyirwan who is a Director General of Water Resources hit the gong loudly. Congratulations!

We would thank to Mr. Wouter and all ADB's coleagues, all participants-especially from Viet Nam, India, Bangladesh, Malaysia, Thailand, Laos, Cambodia, Korea, Philippine and Afghanistan (sorry if I've missed one..). Also for delegation of donor countries such are Netherland and Japan. We appreciate and hope this brief companionship of brotherhood would continue, as well as our spirit to share knowledge about water resources in the region, and surely it could possibly make this world better.




After a long long presentation from each envoys, and tight discussion between others, three days is like a prosaic-monotonous time for all of committees. The committees are from Balai Sungai Solo, BBWS Bengawan Solo and Jasa Tirta. In Balai Sungai itself, there are almost 40 persons who came up and support the event. We actually were the ideal combination of old-young generation. The wisdom of the old with the youth spirit have made precious experience, as it was our first time to organize such kind of event, and fiuh..we made it up!




As in a schedule, Thursday was a Field Trip program. We would visit Flood Warning System in Solo, Colo Weir and Gajah Mungkur Dam in Wonogiri, Underground River in Wonosari, Sandsoil Irrigation System in Samas Beach and well..watching Sendratari Ramayana in Prambanan, Yogyakarta. The last one was not a study visit I guess, may I say that it was a cooling down agenda? :D

First, we visit Flood Warning System..


Then visiting Colo Weir..





Uups, where is the weir in the last pic? Oh, I afraid that's just for fulfill our narcissism desirability (what an amusing reason!). You see, I'm wearing hat and squat in the middle with handy cam. There is Mr. Wouter in left side and some Philippine's participant, and of course the committees with the red id card!

After a half and a hour journey, we landed on Gajah Mungkur Dam in Wonogiri, one of the biggest dam in Indonesia.

Just like Hollywood, isn't it?

From the giant Dam, we spin around Wonogiri through mountainous area and would to see an unusual river in Wonosari. The river was flow about 1oo meters below and we must go down by elevator (exactly it was a heavy steel cage hanged by a couple of cabels..and it takes 5 minutes to go down. How frightening!).

Where's the river? Down there?

Who's the first! Who's the first!

Queue please...

Where's the river now? Ups, we just modify it and..well you know, for water user efficiency.

Where were we go next? I think this was enough and I'll post it in the next chapter..

See you.

How to Restart if I Can't Find the Button?

Thirty years ago, when I decided to get my engineering scholarship in this town, my dream was I would came back to my birthplace and share my knowledge there. I was idealistic, enthusiastic and challenged. But after years to years I can't ignore that my bad discipline got everything pulverization. I've carried all my success away, instead buried precious passion in the early.


It's all about discipline..

The expert told there are high correlation between success and well self-discipline. Someone who have the ability to get himself to take action regardless of his emotional state, and acceptance to perceive reality accurately and consciously acknowledge what he perceive. I think this is simple and obvious, but in practice it’s extremely difficult. If I experience chronic difficulties in a particular area of my life, there’s a strong chance that the root of the problem is a failure to accept reality as it is. The result is easily putative, I'll be back gladly as soon as possible to my comfortable area and again, building a castle in the cloud.

Are discipline people born or made? I definitely would say it depend on self point of view. Some said it could be their gene, race, nationality, family habitually, or even being inspired by the God. I wonder if this is the reason why everyone has not developed their discipline to the same degree, hasn't they? Well, it could be. And if I hasn’t consciously acknowledged where I stand right now in terms of my level of self-discipline, it’s highly unlikely that I'm going to improve at all in this area. Hmm, this is what I should avoid of.

I just consider to what I could accomplish if I could simply get myself to follow through on my best intentions no matter what. I wanna restart all these things via relaxing weekend, but where is the button?

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Relaxing Sunday

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‘The first draft of anything is shit’ that’s Ernest Hemingway famously said once. Every time I started write for this blog, I’d play my finger on keyboard and try to distribute what I’m thinking in that moment. I’d write my minimum up to 4 sentences requirement, and usually, staying inside the lines and squeezing every word with a lot of questions beyond my head. Is this true? What about this one? How should I spell this word? Etc, etc. If I satisfy, I wouldn’t go back on a way to add some spices to a sentence. I’m afraid it just make it all awkward. Otherwise, I had to at least begin the next group of sentences.

I wish, by that method, I manage to produce quite a lot of sentences enough to be published.

Have it flow, once said. Yes, I have to give myself permission to make mistakes, because, I believe, writing isn’t linear process, even though we read in a linear way through pages/posts. Hmm, is that make sense to you, readers?

Huffh..on this Sunday, I feel relax, physically and mentally.

Happy weekend everybody!

Feedback! I Need One!

The first time I started a blog, I was very excited about it and couldn’t wait to tell one of my workmates all about blogging and it’s benefit. I encouraged them to start one too. Blog seemed like the perfect venue for those of us who like to make things out of words.

What’s their response? They thought blogs were just a way for geeks, desperate teenagers who write whatever they think, a person with no job, and so on. And they ask me back ‘Why you blogging anyway, and write in English? C’mon..’.

Since that, I was horrified by the fact that anyone with an internet connection could read my writing. In fact, my desire to get past thet fear was one of the reasons I started the blog you’ve reading now. But actually, I don’t know exactly how blog can help me succeed in my personal goal. And since I continued what I’ve been doing this week, my curiosity become larger and larger. The truth is that in the early days of blog, there were a lot of resources for learning English. Even today, it’s easy to find a truly good English blog, such as Judy and Pavlina. I could say that every piece of writing I produce is practice for the next piece.

I’m using this blog as a vehicle for creative writing, and I think much about how others blog have affected my writing. For that purpose, I use this blog specifically to get feedback from readers.

So, what’s your feedback about this blog, readers?

I Think This is a Good Start

Many websites and blogs mention me about how to be a good english writer. Some of them were obviously worth to read and explore. Like Judy Rose's blog who explain me how to do if I can't get started writing. One of her advice is identify the purpose in my mind. I think this poin is the core of all things about writing. If we could identify our purpose clearly and apply it to the scetch, it's possibly can make our writing better. This's what I do right now. All I can do is sit and start typing every words i know and try to make a good sentence. Like Glenn Abel's motto: Letter - Word - Sentence - Paragraph - Post...Easy, Huh? And become a prosperous blogger like Poewar said: Write Well, Live Well..ups I'm going too far, huh?

Yesterday I registered at blogcatalog to increase traffic to my blog. The network was good and I see this is a nice start to learn writing english that it's network contains huge resources. On the first day I found philevez and I like his blog right away. I can learn a lot through him and find another reasources which so amazing to explore. I agree to his opinion about Stephen King: Read a lot, write a lot. And to be a good reader we must have a good resource. Unfortunately, in my country has lack of public library. But at college is much better. May be I could start reading English book extensively. Cause it possible to enrich my carrer opportunity, just like Angela said.

When I start blogging I have no other reason except want to be a better english writer. I could make mistakes and that's natural way for someone who in learning process. My first resource in blogging is here, and I think it's very very useful for me. I hope those were useful for you too, readers.

Regards.



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Not Enough Time

I had serious problem with my time management. According to my 12 years experience studying in college, have a 8 month baby and working in river research and development, I fell running out of time every day. 24 hours that God provided still make my day such as rush hour in a busy street. Do this and do that, plan this and disregard other..and so on. Having trouble is not my final purpose in this life, so all I can do is try to complete all assignments and feel bored at last.

I'm not the one who give up and suggesting negative point of view for other. No, no, and never at all. That's why many friends trust me, cause I never tell their story to another. I am a good secret keeper, therefore I might have enough time to listen to them. Yes I never ignore friends in all criteria, if I do so I'll feel guilty and nothing I could do except judge sadly to myself.

A few of people seems happy for their life, and I still surprised. I really wonder if I am one of them, live in unspaced life. But now I think, where is responsibility stays? Also commitment and self-spirituality? I can't imagine if there is no religion. Might human being found their destruction, cause of no rule for humanity. Humm..may this writing is my escape to self-guilty? It can be, so everything is released away. I feel good now, and thanks to this media, although my time is still not enough..

First Post!

Okay, this is my first blog in english. I was tempted by another indonesian blogger who had succeed bring their thought to this online media. I think this is not an easy work if. I rather count and analysing flood control and sink in the tons of formula, yea that's a dirty imagination. If fatih told me there're 10 reasons why we blog in english, I tend to write it in my own version.

And here there are:

1. My english is terrible, hardly understood and complicated tense. Since I was SMP students, I tried to comprehend this interesting language. No one guide and I just like it anyway. So, that's what bring me here right now. Just write brutally and pray, hopefully those who read this blog understand and catch my messages. I hope there's somebody out there could give feedback so it can improve me day by day.

2. I agree with fatih about how outsider see and judge us here in Indonesia. We should have our own voices. There will be a better reason if everyone realize this: Indonesia is one of major country which could be a serious competitor on every subjects, if we can stand with our own feet and hadn't affected by foreign dictation. Blogging is one thing and probably the best way to communicate how we life here and spread our thoughts over the world.

3. Making difference in my life, so this will be a good adventure!

So, what are you waiting for? There is only 0,4 percent internet user in ths country. Glad if your voices just heard by that number? Be brave and see what happen next. That's what I'm going to do.