Take My Own Side

Remember when I had been obsessed with something. Actually I didn't know what the point is, otherwise I took a thousand ways to satisfied my will. Sometimes I no longer feel secure in who I am and start comparing myself with others, or no longer have time to maintain a good relationship with my families, friends and colleagues. All in all, I put my life off balance.

Now, the circumstance changes dramatically and gives me no option. I see a clearer path right now and don't want to waste it no more. In fact, I'm young, spirited and a bit genius (as my under-consciousness mind say). I have no problem with my health, instead still smoking a few, and hey is health more important than wealth? At least that is my argue to overcome my pessimist-side.

Some suggests to picture my mind as a blank canvas or a dark sky. I take that and hope my world would more colorful. Like Remy (Ed Harris) on Gone Baby Gone said: 'You must take a side!' . Yes, I take my own side right now.

Hiatus on Facebook

If you've read my previous post about facebook, you'll notice that I would become like those who addicted to the application. Not far of it, immediately but not take a long thoughts, you are true.

In the beginning, I threw up a lot of statuses and commented all friend's status. It's really fun to have a feedback and sink on this virtual communication. Swear to God, procrastination was a very best buddy at that moment. Don't ask for my work productivity, it's far far away from perfect. Moreover, never ever take a look at my desk, cause it's clean! No books, no job list or even small notes about 'to do' list. Yes, that's all my confessions...


Nah, in the middle of the adventure, it was a little bit boring. Spent hours just for being fetch up in front of monitor, type this and that, laugh and mad... This is not my real life, I want to believe (just like Mulder said to Scully on X-Files) that I was a real human being. Not through this way.

That's why I do need some breaks. Hiatus...
But blogging? Hey, I feel a new passion here. Reborn!

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Express Weekend (2)

This is continuance post from the first one.

My trouble had not disappear yet, as the mission was going not too good. I faced with fact that at the moment was a holiday season. People go abroad for their families or take a refreshing vacation somewhere. They extremely need mass transportation as train, bus or anything move and took them to destination place. And you should know that train in Indonesia was a perfect mass transportation ever!

Two days after my arrival, I rush to station for tickets while I still praying for not ran out of it. But fate has been given. I can't believe for I was just heard from the girl behind the counter: 'Tiket habis pak, sampai 4 hari ke depan'. What?!

My head spinning around. How to make it real? I guess some options:
1. We took economic class train, and it means my daughter would really tortured there.
2. We go by bus. Sounds good, but it won't guarantee to have a nice and comfortable bus.
3. Wait till the ticket available, it means I miss my presentation at the office for 4 days.
4. Go by....what?!

And I don't know, that idea was just popped out. Travel! Yea, are there any Travel Agency in Cirebon? I'm not sure but I'll try to find one. By asking some people, most of them are merchantmen, I finally found the agency and you guess what? Fortunately there are still some quotas for us. That's it. The problem was solved, and here I am now...walking down in Solo again. I will miss Cirebon!

Express Weekend (1)

Let me make this thing more clearly. I'll tell a short story 'bout what I did in the last weekend. As you know (do you?) I've been alone for a week because my wife and my daughter went vacation to Cirebon. So, on Friday night I went by train in order to picked up them back to Solo. No, not I, I mean WE . Fortunately, my parent in law, cousin in law, uncle and aunt in law and grandma in law (is that true? I'd confuse to mention their status in English), with two noisy little kids..you imagine that. I was look like a disoriented skinny guy and stupefied in a crowded railway station.

Situation got worse when we ran out of ticket for Senja Bengawan. Thus, we didn't have any options except must went by Gaya Baru (in fact, that train was extremely full of passengers from Surabaya), and honestly I did not like it at all. But for goodness sake, I'll do everything to go altough must get through of this. What else? I'd miss my family much!

So, that painfully journey was happened to me. I can't sit, can't move or even stretch my back, but Alhamdulillah I still can breath...

Seven hours later, at last I and my cousin in law arrived at Cirebon raiway station. With painful bones and annoyed heart we dragged our feet walked down through that quite and cold dorm. And finally, yea finally.. I can laid down my body at a taxi cab.

Every single pain was dissapear when I saw my one year daughter slept. Yes, she's so beautiful...

to be continued

No Breakfast...

This is the fourth day for being a bachelor again. Last night I watched Valkyrie from video rental and I decided to not borrow more than one movie, unless I'll broke my own health and flunk alone like poor loser. Hey, I've slept late for 3 nights! Influenza is coming easier to my condition right now, I realize that as I believe luck come easier for an optimistic man (is that so?). Plus what I did in the afternoon was totally neglect all sentiment, I played futsal with workmates for one hour. Call me freak and I'll nod perfectly :)


And as I thought before, I woke up lately this morning. No breakfast on a table, dirty dishes and smell of coffee still breeze..

Oh, this gonna be a long long day ahead.