Do Something, Not Just Shout!

Demonstration is the most common activities in Indonesia. If you have time to watch Indonesian TV channel (I suggest to not doing this, it waste your time and make you dumber than an idiot), you’ll see a lot of people go down to the streets and yelling something, one of them should bring a speaker. He probably walks backward and supposes to be their leader. But I think he’s like a moderator of disorder party, or such an unclassified mayorette of a disoriented drum band.

Do they speak in the name of people? The messages are clear, but the mind behind it is questionable. The fact is, people in this country turn out worse economically, socially or even mentally. It doesn't educate us at all and for me, it's like a folly.

Corruption, distrust, accumulated with lack of empowerment, and possibly spiced with provocateur made this suicidal collective action brought us to circumstances that are not getting better. They might forget about hard work. I was thinking do they have a real job instead expose themselves to the sun? Do something man, not just march in those indeterminate groups!

This country needs hard workers, and wouldn't change even you rally your entire resources. Something that should be changed is us, ourselves. How do we think, how do we act, and how do we set up ourselves to go through this blurred period.

I hope things will be better...for Indonesia.

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In Kupang (again)...

I've stayed here for just two nights but it feel like a thousand nights. The smell doesn't change at all. The sun's shining at approximately 37 degrees and still..lack of water. My friend told me that I would gonna be suffered in the office's inn 'cause of that matter. I thought he's joking or - as usually - tries to throw exessive humours (that hear it's not funny at all), but it does frighten me. 2 months without water for bathing and anything for what we're doing in the toilet? Must be a worst nightmare that I would dream about!

Kupang should be an unlucky city. Placed at Timor island, Nusa Tenggara Timur Province of Indonesia which has a semi-dry climate. Rain only drops just in December and January, but I believe that's just a fake theory, 'cause the fact is there's no real rain here. It only a litte amount of water falls down to earth on temporary way. It's crazy for Sundanese like me, or anyone who live in Java island which rain drops almost everyday during wet season.

But life must go on. Hope everything're gonna be okay.

See you.

Bad Day Waffles

I woke up at 2 am, did my unfinished work so I can email it just right at 6 am. Today I'm going to Kupang, the capital of Nusa Tenggara Timur province, Indonesia, while it have been left for about 2 months. First, it's surprising. Second, it may be just not good for my daily plan. Ok, I just have to change this and that, or whatever it's gonna be, but sure..I can't change the world (sorry Clapton..)

When I landed at Yahoo, wow..what a headline here. 'Bad Day' named one-hit wonder of the decade? Seriously? Actually I do love that song. Specially when you got your heart broke, something proceed were not like you planned, or might just stared up in the window and watched the cloud out there. Yea, every songs have their own moment, haven't they?

Back to 'Bad Day', who is the singer? Oya, Daniel Powter. He's Canadian and this single is just his first album?! Damn. How many artist we heard that can reach that achievement? In his first impression he can charming every single heart in this planet. He conquers US and Ireland on his first year. Furthermore, in the US, it was a massive smash hit, and became a most successful single of 2006 as Ranked by Billboard Magazine.

Let's see a part of its lyric...

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

The first and second are my favorite. Where's the moment I needed most? Tricky question. I'm a loner, and I guess the moment I needed most is when I'm completely alone. Being alone is not too bad, just need a little reconciliation between your brain and your heart. If it's not working, don't push too hard, get a cigarette and burn it down. Well, that's my style. I don't know how's yours.

I kick up the leaves and the magic is lost. I believe, the word magic here is refers to luck. How many times you lose your luck, when it right there in your bare hand and ready to be used? For me, it's a thousand times. Sometimes luck is easy to get, and easy go too, it depend on my own perspective. Of course, if I presume today is my lucky day, everything's going to be okay. All I must do is keep that idea in mind, do the best thing, and don't forget to pray (we do it everyday, don't we?)

Oks, my mail has sent, it means I must finish this post right now. Thanks for coming by, and good luck with your work, people!

Sucker for Irrelevancy

Now, something I need to point out. How bad to be a multitasking person? No, I'm not talking about the ability to juggle Facebooking a friend; scanning an email; texting on your cell phone and tweeting about your latest technology tip — all at the same time. What I try to tell you is: is that okay if someone take - for example - two responsibilities at a same time, although he couldn't determines which one is to be a priority?

I hate rush and I consider it as a nuisance. May be other loved to be seen as a busy man, but I don't. D'you know what I know about busy man? The people who love to brag about how they're wired differently from mere mortals and can accomplish several things at once. More sarcastic? They're suckers for irrelevancy.

Just not my thing..

Irrelevancy or not, we must realize if we found it hard to believe each other while we just sitting behind the desk. Everybody talk about action and action. That's why I hate watch television right now. It's too many jargons, allurements, euforias, and bullshits everywhere. I see more hates than loves there. Damn.

Back to the point, multitasking. Someone said that if you want to be a good multitasker, you need to be able to very quickly decide between what's important and what are you going to pay attention to. That's my bigget problem , man!

I believe that people can't multi task very well, and when people say they can, actually they deluding themselves. Because what? the brain is very good at deluding itself.

I'm not deluding myself, neither sucker for irrelevancy. So what's the matter?

Cloudy Sunday

This cloudy Sunday don't make me weak. In the morning, me with family were going to one of the greatest spot in this city, Manahan Park. Right 7.00 a.m, we took there, feeding our baby with mush and breakfast with sun soup (is it right to spell: sup matahari?). It's very crowded, we must walk inch by inch, touch each other, well..we have to be in patient exercise in the early morning. That's good :)

What d'you guys do in this Sunday?

Just Tired

I was tired for everything. For those unfinished problems, or difficult peoples, ohm..I was close to make my mind in a bad prejudice. It's not good. I need something fresh, not just attacked by ideas I conquered long ago. I hope not.

On my to do list, there are several things that I must erase it immediately. Might they just wasting my time, or sucking off my energy, I must don't give a care. Too much intens right now that force me into this puzzlement. May be I'm not a goal-oriented anymore, but everything should be done before New Year! Damn, it least than one month ahead.

By the way, to attribute my educational results in internal factors that I can control is likely my major motive. And believe I can be effective agents in reaching desired goals was another one. Also interested in mastering a topic, rather than just rote-learning to achieve good grades, make a peculiar step in my day by day life.

But is it important right now? While everything seem unclear and my mind like got bombed with sorrows? Hey, you still have this free oxygen, don't you? Yea, who said it's for sale for God sake. Sorry, I'm gonna be swept off feet here...

Ok, next question is, how do I get motivated? It may be different for us all, but we have all got one, haven't we?

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Start Up a New Toy

I've working on physical model test for one month and I found many things are new here. On the first order, our attention is about to overcome the rate of sedimentation into the Wonogiri reservoir. One of the actions is building a sabo dam or check dam on the certain river which might have reasonable contributes to supply sediments into the reservoir.

According to inception research, upperstream of Keduang river has a suitable place for sabo dam. And hydraulic test are required for clarifying the appropriateness of its hydraulic design with main objectives are: to study hydraulic performance, to obtain flow parameters, to study the problem encountered and to confirm the effectiveness of the design of the sabo dam.

One of the items of observation is carried out local scouring on the downstream riverbed of the sabo dam and also on the new bridge foundation. Here's my task, to simulate the sediment transport beyond sabo dam, therefore the model can be applied on the real world.

ANSWERS is the software to simulate the behavior of watersheds having agriculture as
their primary land use, during and immediately following a rainfall event. A distributed parameter watershed model incorporates the influences of the spatially variable, controlling parameters, e.g. topography, soils, land use, etc., in a manner internal to its computational algorithms. Those factors influence sediment transport on the watershed. I think that's a phylosophy of ANSWERS.

Can't wait to share what happen next.

Reasons

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

As Oasis blow off Don't Look Back in Anger on my earphone, I try to recollect my lost memories that influence what I've got today. Several photos, pieces of writings, nostalgic songs and glances of fine remembrances, freshly wrap around my head. Honestly, I hate to be a man who ever was, and the other way, sometimes I miss my youth time very much.

Teenage angst has paid off well
Now I'm bored and old

Cobain probably could read my mind. He sang about discomfort of being old, but still have a little youth enthusiasm which brought him to express it on brilliant way. Same with my life. However I do these days, those are a cumulative of what I did yesterday. A friend told me that I'm too mousy, I accept that, and inch by inch it'll become a psychological walfare for my life. The good news is, I'm not a fragile people. So I attempt to strenghten my other potential talent which could conceal it and blotting out those. Writing is also can be an aid. I guess that's my reason to write in this blog again. To heal the past...

Do you agree if someone say that 'writing is healing'?

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